What is "Mommy"

Today, as I sit at home, carefully watching my child, intuitively knowing that he does not feel well, I am thinking about being a mom. Every morning I wake up and my first thought is of my baby. I pull myself out of bed only because I am anxious to look at his sweet little face. Peering down over his crib, my heart melting, I see a goofy smile on his face. I think, it was my decision to make him and I made him! How giant of a decision, that is taken so lightly. I believe motherhood starts from the moment you decide you want a child. In that instant, life goes from being about you, to not. January of 2010, I remember laying in the exact spot I am now, with my husband beside me, marveling that we were pregnant. Wondering what life was going to be like and gazing at my tummy with such intense curiosity. Life was wonderful at that moment and the next 9 months proved to be unpredictable and indescribable. No woman can ever possible imagine what childbearing is like, until she is in the midst of it! Mommy is completely unselfish, fiercely protective, forgiving, patient, giving, and unconditionally in love. As I was in the midst of an extremely difficult delivery, 30 hours of labor ending in an emergency c-section, I was not concerned about me but about my child. Laying on the operating table, awake and aware of what was being done, the only thing I wanted was to see him. That moment I heard his sweet little cry and he was brought to me, and we cuddled cheek to cheek, I will remember forever. I was gazing at him in awe of how amazing and beautiful he was, while he was looking at me, knowing who I was and making sure I was always going to be there. Mommy, is not just a name, but a task that is not to be taken lightly. I love being a mommy. My child is a miracle, created by love, and given to us by the Creator, to love and teach and nurture. How much better I understand the Creator and His great love for His children. How I love being "Mommy."